when I lose some weight and tone up anon ;)
Anonymous inquired You are so fucking hot. I'd kill for you to post some nudes
- 2 hours of Yoga a day
- 1 hour of running a day
- Continue herbal cleanse, clean eating, detox
- Writing, purge my soul
- Throw myself into studying
- Pick up cute men with witty, philosophical discussion on OkCupid (rather than sucking your dick)
- Sit amongst the trees beneath the sunshine while inhaling the delectable fumes of life
- Reading. Broaden my knowledge to fill the void. Immerse myself with books.
- Focus on achieving my goals. I will create something of my life whether you are apart of it or not.
MY CONSTANT NEED FOR VALIDATION IS EATING ME ALIVE.
the void within can never be satiated.
i am a ravenous girl, feed me your soul, your mind, and that still won’t be enough.
I wonder if my therapist is sick of me yet?
I text her incessantly about every slightly cataclysmic aspect of my life, although at the end of each session she does tell me to text and call her during the week if need be, so I do; feeling suicidal, oh well she can save me, want to self harm, nope she will save me again. craving chemicals? nope she can talk me out of it. flashbacks? she will calm me down.
Why can’t she just take me home, adopt me and be my substitute mother?
Doesn’t she realize she has officially been appointed as my latest savior?
Fucking transference.
I had a REALLY triggering day laden with chaos and drama.
BUT I DIDN’T USE ANY PROBLEM BEHAVIOURS.
I am just going to take a moment to congratulate myself for getting through it.
William Blake,The Soul Exploring the Recesses of the Grave.
(via c0untessbathory)
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There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. After all life is too short to be anything but happy.
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by Unknown
(Source: sweetcheeksaremadeofthese)
i need to change my number, i swear to god everyone picks the worst time to start shit with me. that or the universe is trying to kill me.
Omg two bitches in Blacktown just tried to beat me up and start a fight with me before class.
Dirty crackhead gronk girls.
This place is the scum of the Earth.
Anonymous inquired hey, youre a human arent you? and humans are animals. so animals do a lot of really weird shit all the time, without exactly knowing why theyre doing it. its natural and happens all the time, dude youre doing fine.
I wish I was an animal anon, things would be so much more simplistic. Human consciousness is a complex state of affairs.
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Stop looking for your purpose - simply walk the path of self-discovery: Heal your old wounds, dissolve your false beliefs, uncover what you enjoy most in life and simply follow the voice of your intuition. Your purpose will reveal itself simply by following your inner guidance without the confusing filters of limitations that are caused by stories you tell yourself and others. Once you clear your mind of self-imposed limitations, you will hear your purpose speak to you through your dreams and desires.
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by Nanice Ellis (via loveage-moondream)
(Source: dakinigoddess, via loveage-moondream)
I have this irrational fear that spiders can read my mind.
I don’t like the notion of killing living creatures, so that isn’t an option, I somehow have to co-exist despite my colossal fear of the creatures when they crawl into my environment.
I just telepathically bargained with the spider sitting above me in the shower spindling in his web, and told him not to move until I was finished showering. Can they sense vibrational frequencies? They do have eight eyes, can they sense when a human is looking at them?
I always wondered why so many humans have an irrational fear of spiders, considering they are diminutive compared to us. Shall pursue research now instead of revising for my health essay. Fascinating yet terrifying creatures.
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I don’t know if others are like me, or if the science of life consists essentially in being so alienated from oneself that this alienation becomes second nature, such that one can participate in life as an exile from his own consciousness. Or perhaps other people, even more self-absorbed than I, are completely given over to the brutishness of being only themselves, living outwardly by the same miracle that enables bees to form societies more highly organized than any nation and allows ants to communicate with a language of tiny antennae whose results surpass our complex system of mutual understanding.
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by Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet (via allegorys)
(Source: pocket-full-of-stones, via allegorys)
